-=| dividing heaven and earth |=-

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if i die, would anyone even know?
one little bullet, one single blow.
what am i to you, except a pain?
if i were dead, would you probably gain?
am i the only one who feels this way?
should i go on to see another day?
i'm confused, my life's a mess.
with death, comes no stress.
would anyone cry?
i bet all eyes would stay dry.
sometimes i wish i could end it-
if death was meant for me...
i wish God would send it....



the stories of happiness
Friday, May 27, 2005
hai...

haii... malapit na naman ang pasukan... nadadama ko na uli ang mga gabing walang tulog at parating puyat kasi ngyn palang ay parati na akong puyat at madaling araw na natutulog... ang kulog at konting pag-ulan ay lalong nagdadagdag ng senyas na ang panahon ng tag-ulan ay nariyan na...
bilang na ang araw ko at magpapasukan naman... ilang tulog nalang at mag-eenroll na naman kami...
anu bang nangyari sa akin makalipas ang dumaan na dalawang buwan at kalahati? hmm...

*marso palang ay sadyang napaka giliw na ng aking bakasyon... tuwing sabado at linggo parati kaming nagpupunta ka karatig lalawigan tulad ng laguna, batangas, pampanga at iba pa. kung anu-anong trip ang naiisip ng pamilya, magpiknik sa mt. makiling, magswimming sa batangas, magpalamig sa pampanga, minsan pumunta kami sa tagaytay para lng magstarbucks...

*abril, pumasok ako at tatlo kong kablockmate sa microcad upang matutunan ang paggamit ng autocad 2005. lunes-miyerkules-biyernes ang aming skedyul sa pagpasok sa microcad. minsan nga eh tinamad kaming apat at tumambay nlng kami sa katipunan...kht ganun kc ang skedyul nmin ay nakakatamad tlga... sa mga panahong ito, naging maganda uli ang aming pagkakaibigan ni debby... naging masaya ako nun, ang ispasyo sa aming paggitan ay wala na... sa panahon ding ito, ang mga pangarap ko ay hindi ko natupad, tulad nlng ng paghahanap ng trabaho para kumita ng pera at mga ibang bagay ukol sa aking personal na buhay... masasabi kong ang abril ko ay napakabusy... napakaraming pambihirang nangyari sa akin...

*mayo, magtatapos na ang aming klase sa microcad...at ako ay papunta na ng cebu at bohol. dito, lubusan ang aking pagbabakasyon, kain ng kain, tulog ng tulog, beach ng beach...kaya ngyn ako'y nangitim...hehe...sa cebu naman, wala akong ibang ginawa kundi tagay ng tagay sa gabi at tagabantay ng internet shop sa umaga... pambihira, ndi ko naggawa ung drowing na sasalihan ko, ewan ko ba at ako'y tinamad...sayang malaking pera rin sana ang gantimpala...pag-uwi ko ng maynila, balik realidad na naman ako... napakarami kong gustong gawin ngunit sadyang kakaiba ang pakiramdam...bakasyon na bakasyon pero pakiramdam ko nagkaklase na ako.

malapit na ang kaarawan ni stephanny at ang date sana namin ni trixie at naudlot na rin..sayang, magkikita na uli sana kami ni kitchie, hehe... pero sayang tlga kc un sana ang napakagandang pagkakataon na makasama si trixie... magiging masaya siguro ang gabi ko, may kitchie na may trixie pa! pero ang tadhana nga naman ay sadyang mapaglibang....

may katagalan narin ang huli kong paggawa ng entry dito sa aking munting blog... sa cebu ko pa ginawa yung huli at ako;y nagmamadali pa... panu pa kaya kung pasukan na? hindi kaya napakalaking agwat ang mangyari nito? marahil oo, siguro sa mga unang dalawang buwan ndi pa, pero sa susunod na lilipas, ewan ko nlng.

haii...


"i gaze my eyes upon the realm of death"


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Tuesday, May 17, 2005
my last 2 days in cebu

waaahh!! my vacation in cebu is almost done! one more sleep and i'll be flying back home!! waahh!!:c
and my friend trixie is going here in cebu waaahh!! still need vacation!! hehe...
anyways, guess what! i have tan lines! haha!! i dont know how it happened but i have tan lines on my stomach. the upper part is tanned the lower part is not. its like there is an equator on my stomach! wahehehe...well anyways, i really miss here in cebu! i love here even in manila...even it looks like manila..hehe...so there
when i get back, i'll post a new one hehe...

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Tuesday, May 03, 2005
may sched for may...

ahehe, sa sobrang wala pang magawa, share ko sa inyo sked ko for may2005

may 4 - may pasok, autocad
may 5 - myx presents: rivermaya and kitchie nadal concert 9pm
may 6 - may pasok, autocad (dapat tpos na toh ngyn)
may 9 - las day na ng pasok sa autocad
may 10 - will be leaving for cebu 730pm
may 11 - will be leaving for bohol (no time yet)
may 14 - leave bohol, back to cebu, celebr8 fiesta
may 18 - leave cebu for manila via boat
may 19 - arrival
may 20 - leave for mindoro nmn
may 22 - leave mindoro for manila
may 29 - steph's birthday!!
may 30 - concert ni kitchie nadal @ metro(west ave)

yan..ahehe..so kung ndi ako OL, alam nyo kung san ako or kung OL man ako, nasa cebu ako nyan, ahehe...cnu gusto pasalubong?!?! anyone?...




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Friday, April 29, 2005
In SeArch oF tHe greAt LoVE

this past few days...i often feel that i am so lonely...even i have a lot of friends who are always there right infront of my very eyes...i still feel the emptiness that dwells in my heart...
i dont know why...sometimes i ask questions, like whats wrong with me?...is there something amiss? or do i already know the real me???...
questions that are in search of answers revolve in my mind...even in the happiest moment that i get, i dont feel the intensity of that feeling, without someone to share with...
whats this all about? is this the impact of that girl, the one i overly loved that i didnt get a thing in return???..maybe i'm just a fool who keeps on falling inlove at the wrong place at the wrong time?
this heart of mine seeks love...the heart has a great hunger for love, but this hunger comes with great passion!..i want to love as if i've never loved someone before in my entire life!
i'm not in a hurry to love someone or just to have a relationship...its just that, i miss the feeling when you are inlove...nothing to loose, nothing to regret...its difficult to describe the feeling that one dwells in the persons heart especially when you speak of love. even an enormous word would not fit to describe one's feeling when in love...silly actions, mistakenly deeds, these are some of the things you would do for love...





when one door closes, another opens;
but we often look so long and so
regretfully upon the closed door that
we do not see the one which has
opened for us....

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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
repost from the past..

15 Things You Probably
Never Knew or Thought About

1. At least 5 people in this world love you so
much they would die
for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in
some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate
you is because they want to
be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to
anyone, even if they
don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you
before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. If not for you, someone may not be living.

8. You are special and unique.

9. Someone that you don't even know exists
loves you.

10. When you make the biggest mistake
ever, something good comes
from it.

11. When you think the world has turned its
back on you, take a look:
you most likely turned your back on the world.

12. When you think you have no chance of
getting what you want, you
probably won't get it, but if you believe in
yourself, probably,
sooner or later, you will get it.

13. Always remember the compliments you
received. Forget about the
rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about
them; you will feel much
better when they know.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to
let them know that
they are great.

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Saturday, April 23, 2005
concerts! movies! cebu! bohol! at birthday!

waahh!! ang dami kong pangalawang concert ko na namiss ang earth day jam kgbi! at mamimiss ko pa ang summer shibang ng NU sa Island Cove! at mukhang mamimiss ko rin ang WWV ng Pulp! waahh!! ang daming concert ko na ang namiss ko!! especially ung rivermaya kitchie nadal sa araneta!! waahh:( sana sa may magkakaroon pa!! atsana mapanood ko rin! hindi lang concert ang namiss ko, pati na mga movies! especially spongebob! leche!! latest movie na napanood ko wedding date! wahehe!! at oo nga pala debut ng blockmate nmin ngyn!! actually birthday noong april 6, pero ngyn lng sya magcecelebrate ng debut..well, to Patricia "Phatti" Reyes, happy birthday!! kita kits sa enrollment! hehe... hay... uuwi pa ako ng cebu at bohol! trix!! sabay nlng tayo punta, pareschedule mo nlng, booking palang nmn ung ginawa nyo eh! hehe.. sayang, wala kc akong nakuhang pic nung boat nmin, ganda un pang cruise sa bohol kc pwde mo ilublob paa mo habang tumatakbo ung boat, pwde ka rin magsun-bathing habang nakasakay dun... kung cnong nakakaalam ng super cat(fast ferry sya) may hawig sa disenyo, double hull din, pero syempre iba na itsura ng mga upuan, open sya as in open na open! dibale, pagpnta ko sa bohol, kukuhaan ko un ng pic, ako model! wahehe...joke! tpos makakakita ka rin ng mga dolphins dun! kso dpat maaga kang maglalayag o sa hapon, kung saan nagtatakipsilim na! kaso kung ganung oras, hindi mo mapipicturan ng maayos..hehe...



the will to win, the desire to succeed,
the urge to reach your full potential...
these are the keys that will unlock the
door to personal excellence.

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Thursday, April 21, 2005
waaacchhaaa!!!

and its been a long time since i wrote a blog. i can barely touch my computer nowadays. its either im not home and get back late at night or i am in my summer class or im busy doing something else. so wats up peeps? kinda miss everybody, especially my blockmates and my tab friends.

so wats up with me? hmm..every m.w.f i have an autocad class in cubao. then after my class i drive my sis to makati where she works. then go home do some picture framing, coz by dad's going to have a display show, im just going to hitch in, hehe..who knows, my pictures might be sold, hehe..every tuesday and thursday, i still drive my sis to her work and pick her up around 11pm. and everyweek end, we almost always go out to near by provinces, like laguna, bulacan, pamapanga, pangasinan and something a like...

i have a problem, everytime i want to tag somebody else there's always a message saying, "cookies deactivated?" what the heck? i know whats the use of these cookies but i didn't turned it off! i don't even know where i manipulate those things and i wont do it, why the heck should i deactivate it? my internet life would be like hell! hehe...so if anyone could help me out, i'll be glad to..so please help, somebody?

so whats going on today, you say? hmmm...i'll still look for the other pics i took a long time ago and frame them, then i have to drive my sister again this afternoon...after that if i still have time, i'll invite my friend for a coffe if she wants and if i still have money left, hehe...(",)

btw, steph, if you're reading this, anu, tuloy kayo sa tomas morato bukas? waahh!! tuloy tayo dude!! punta daw si zach eh, baka mag plug ng album nila!! hehe...mga quezon city boys pupunta ata eh, ndi ko pa nga natatanong si ralph kung sino sino na ang pupunta pero ako sure na ako! wahaha!! punta kayo!! isama mo na friends mo at ung anu mo, *ahem* wahehe!! (tama ba ako??!?!) syet alam mo b ung event ng NU sa Island Cove sa Cavite? ung summer palooza ba un? syet c debbie pupunta! waah!! gusto ko rin sana kaso waahh!! may sked na akong iba eh!! waah!! eh ung World War V? ung sa pulp? mura lang tiket, 180pesos may free drinks, free food, free beer ar free t-shirt! san ka pa?! syet ang daming concerts!! so little time!! ndi kayang puntahan lahat!!waaahh!!! nakakabaliw na!! waaahhahaha!!! sa may kaya meron pa?! syet uwi ako ng cebu that month tpos may project pa kami sa mindoro!! waahh nahehektik skedyul na ako!! wahaha, pnu pa kaya kung tumuloy ako sa starbucks ano? yari na toh!! todo na toh!! waahahaha!!!

so there, hehe...kulang pa yan steph, hehe...aun...so keep on tagging me kasi i can't tag, i dont know why! i suck pare!

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Thursday, April 14, 2005
hehe..bagong mukha...

hehe, ok ba? akma ba sa panahon? mukha namang summer diba kahit fall anf dating? hehe..un lng!..oo nga pala anna, okx lng yun, bsta friends, wala na akong pakialam kung palayasin man ako ng magulang ko dito, bsta alam kong nandun ako para sa kanila, kahit wala na sila para sa akin! the bitter sweet of life is like a coffee, may pait kahit nilagyan mo ng asukal...ayt! peace awt!!

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empty minded

hehe..hai...nu pa ba? wala eh... wala pang maisulat ng maayos.
since i went to san fabian, my mind was blank...i don't know why. then i want to watch the concert of rivermaya and kitchie nadal!! give me some tickets please!!:(
last night, i had some bad issues with my parents. i went to glorietta yesterday after my class. kc 1 of our blockmates is going to korea for atleast 1 month...but i really dont know if she's going back here or not na..so i went there with 2 other friends...4 in all...so there we share a little bonding time, hehe...the sad part is that, i was kinda running late, and i really have to get home before 6...and i didn't ask permission to go there. so i went home around 530pm wondering that i'm safe from going home pa without being caught, unfortunately mom called me asked me where was i, i said i was going home na...i didn't tell her that i went to g4 but instead to SM and watched a movie...sayang nga ksi tumawag sya kung kelan malapit na ako sa bahay!! ilang metro nalang nasa bahay na ako! sayang tlga, muntik na akong makalusot!..aun...the sad part is that i lost their trust on me once again:( well, ganyan tlga kapag makulit kang bata...especially when you want to defy your parents and prove something that you want them to see that you're right and they're wrong...

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Friday, April 08, 2005
road trip!!

hehe...grbe, since holy week lagi nlng kami nagttravel...to start off...

HOLY WEEK: first stop was cebu, stayed for a while and visited our grandparents then in the afternoon, rode a fast craft went to bohol. we ate dinner at the house of one of our tiya...
DINNER MENU: fresh alimango, kinilaw na lato(a kind of seaweed), inihaw na isda(forgot the name), sugpo, kinilaw na tuna, tinua na lapu-lapu at grilled liempo.
after that, my dad, requested for a reflexologist, we all had a good massage then went to sleep.
the next day, we went to our grandma's house and attended the procession. the next day, we went to an island near bohol for some snorkling! then went to sagbayan peak to view chocolate hills, kaso ginabi na kami, hehe..the follwing day, went back to cebu, ate some steamed rice(steamed rice nila dun ndi ung kanin lang, its some kind of rice toppings pero masarap, try to visit cebu then asked for it, describing it is difficult, eating it is the easiest!) the late at night, bought the book ABNKKBSKNPLA by Bob Ong, then went home...

LAST WEEK: we went to mt. makiling in laguna. we want to have a trek, kso sarado sil due to often hold-up incidents. so we end up the other side of it were there is a small resort. but we still got our trek, kahit maikli lang, hehe..we went up on a high place in UPLB where their open avr is located...we got some nice view overlooking laguna de bai(blockmates, nakita ko ung site sa design subject natin!!). ate our lunch then head home.

KANINA: me and my sister went to pampanga, the hometown of my future brother-in-law. bumisita lang kami at nangamusta. ako nagdrive pauwi, honestly, ngayon ko lang na-experience magdrive sa high way nang matagal. sabi ko sa sarili ko, "syet, masaya ito" eh mabilis kc ako magpatakbo kahit ndi ako nagmamadali. so at first try i went to 100mi/h.. then i slowly accelerated to 120...140...160mi/hr. hanggang dun lang muna, hindi ko pa ata kakayanin kung mag-170 and above na ako, ayoko pa sigurong mamatay, wahehe..so wat is my a.)instaneous speed b.) ave velocity c.) wat time will arrive if i left pampanga at 5:30pm? hehe, ginawa ba dw physics!

LAST TRIP OF THE DAY: went to UP to watch my friend's younger sister to play the piano, its her piano recital. she was really good, i had a relaxed time while listening to her..i was with some of my blockmates, sarang, katrina, erika and rey. by the way, it was sarang's younger sister. at may kasama pa silang isang ka-classmate sa PE, kenneth ang pangalan...aftr her performance, we ate then bond for some time then went home, i drove my friends where they can easily get a taxi or jeep to went home.

MAMAYA: punta kami ng san fabian sa pangasinan. magkikita kita ang org ng aking papa at ang org nmin(mga kanya kanyang anak ng bawat pamilya) isa itong yearly activity ng org nmin. nagmemeeting sila para mga na-accomplish ng grupo at mga future plans nila. at the same time kami din. kami ang manus dei kids, kc ang mga dad ang orig na manus dei. pero ang pinag-uusapan lng nmin eh puro gimmik na puro drawing kadalasan at may kasamang inuman! pero syempre for a change, may sarili rin kaming mga projects. hehe...religious one din...


so, aun...sana marami pa kaming mga road trip na ggwin, hehe..grbe ndi pa ako n22log at may klase pa ako bukas, at hindi pa rin ako nag-iimpake! wahehe=)...ayt! peace out!!








libro ng kaalaman: paboritong libro ni hudas by bob ong
musika ng kalayaan: prom ng sugarfree at lunes ng spongecola
pelikula ng masining: songebob squarepants at be cool

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